Sunday, April 10, 2011

Frustrated

So this post has nothing to do with Spain. Spain is fun. I'm enjoying it.

I'm just so frustrated right now. I don't want to go into too much detail - yes this is my blog, but I don't want to reveal every single bit of personal information on it.

Have people ever gotten the completely wrong idea about you? Or not even completely wrong, just wrong in general? And instead of deciding to find out what you're really all about, they make assumptions and live by them, as if they were real, as if they were the truth?

That's what's been happening to me lately. People think I'm better than I actually am. Yes, I try to be a good, nice, caring person. I try to live by the Bible and its teachings, I try to treat people the way I want to be treated.

I don't always succeed. I'm not perfect.

There are people out there who don't get that. They see that I'm nice. And sweet. And loving and caring and patient and kind and respectful. Then they immediately assume I'm too good for them. I'm better than they are morally. I'm a little angel.

None of that is true.

Obviously there are grey areas and fine lines and all that, but I tend to believe that if people are trying their best to be a good person...it may not work quite like that. But that's what I like to think.

According to that thought, I am no better than anyone else (obviously there are some exceptions, like murderers, but I'm trying to make a point here). In this situation that I'm in, I don't feel like I'm any better or worse than the other person involved.

But they feel like I am. And they're beating themself up about it. And I'm working my hardest to try to make them see that I don't feel that way at all - that in my eyes, we're on equal footing.

It's not working. And I don't know what to do.

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Day Three

Hi everyone...as I'm studying abroad in Santander, Spain, you can read about everything I'm doing here.

When I find a little extra time (such as today, a rainy Saunday afternoon in Santander), I'm going to try to at least keep up with the Thirty Day photo challenge. So, I give you day three: a picture of the cast from my favorite show.

photo via google

This is, obviously (I think), the cast from Friends.

This show is hands-down my favorite show ever. Despite seeing every episode multiple times, it never gets old. I make references to it every single day, without fail...I can't get over how much I love this show.

I was too young to really watch it when it was on, but I watched the reruns when they're on TV, on DVD, online...this show is fantastic. I really can't praise it enough!

♥ abigail